Tuesday, 19 May 2009

Being back

It was such a good rest! Such good time spent with Dad and Eddie and by the pool. I read four books. I had 'forgotten' how much I love reading, how good it feels to have time.
It may be over but I am happy!

You know that feeling when you get back from holiday and launch into a routine so quickly that it seems as though you never really went? Normally I get that but this time everything was so vivid that I don't feelas though it never happened. I can summon the images and the feeling of being there, even from a glass office block far removed from the smells and fumes of Bangkok.

My first day back at work has been stressful. I got in very early to sort through my emails and I couldn't go for lunch until 3.30. I'm the one who gets lunch at 12 normally! Emails, calls, no time to do things, didn't have a moment to answer Lizzie's email (sorry, Liz).

But, the day is over. I may still be at work but when you are alone in the office you feel that the day is over. You can do things at your own pace. When I worry about going into work, when I ascend the escalators in the tube with dread, I am comforted by the thought that, like everything, the day will end.

Now it's 9.22. I know I should stay, file some emails, prepare for tomorrow. But what I really want to do is go home. Go home, make some herbal tea in my new Bangkok Starbucks mug and cosy up in bed. Which shall it be?


pp65468 said...

Hi Vanessa,

I was a bit sad to read your entry. I know it's rough for you, but I feel you really should not have to back to work and dread it. I don't have your experience so I want to be careful - let me just say that you have all reason to be proud of yourself for having really a flawless career with tons of options in the future. I know it's probably not a great consolation - just a try.

Hugs and welcome back in the world's greatest city :)


Katie said...

I hope you went home...

Pearl said...

I hope you went home, Vanessa. You deserve a break.

Vanessa said...

I went home :)

Anonymous said...

Hey, glad you're back! I mean, for us. Sucks for you.
Ah well, the only good thing about coming home from holidays is you can start planning next year's.